I changed my cloths three times now and i am still not fine with what i have on. We leave for Bowling at 2:00 which right now it is 11:28 am.

I sit and eat telling myself that tomorrow i will exercise it all off. I go on a trip for two weeks and i was wanting to lose weight. I leave Tuesday, this gives me two more days to lose the weight.

When depression set in,  things,  get out of your control and a part of you,  has a drive to live.  You do live, but in a way you are not accustom to. Which of course confuses you. Because things are normal to you, you are just not happy.

Tell you what you gotta do . . .Look around yourself to the people around you and take in what you see.  What do you see?  People who look just like you whether you understand it or not.  But see how they are dressed . . .Yes differently than you . . .Al though some like you.  Wait . . .Are these the happy people are they sad people are they a mixture of happy sad.  You should come to see that it is not the cloth that make the people,  it is the people themselves, making themselves. So see . . .You are fine. Most people do not care about the cloth on your back they do care however care, how you are. Happy or sad.

It is the person who wears the cloth,   not the cloth on the person.

YOUR ATTITUDE WITH THE CLOTHS ON YOUR BACK. You can mak anything look good if you forget and just be you.

Eating   Eating   eating eating eatingeatingeating.   DEPRESSION   eating

Eating depression. eat it don’t eat it . . .hmm . . .If i eat it,  i, will feel i did something that i could,  and no one stopped me or told me not to eat or take it away or say how silly or any thing at all.    

Depression eating . . . If i do not eat it,  i, will be doing what they,  want me to do.  why should i listen to them tell me what i can eat even . . .Frig that,  i will eat what i want when i want. And now i am happy i did what i wanted.  To eat.

Why do we choose food for comforting . . .WHY FOOD?  BECAUSE IT FILLS US.

Do you understand,  we do things,  that we do or like,  until we are tired or satisfied or finished, you know,  had enough . . .Well,  when certain,  people,  have nothing in their lives that they like to do,  they use FOOD and eat until they too are finished, satisfied or what ever, had enough.  Food is always on hand.

Let me change one more time. Please.

 Hear is what you gotta do,  find a different attitude. Don’t harbour food anywhere close to you,  make sure you have a fair walk to get it. AND FIND A HOBBY.  WHEN YOU ARE BUSY YOU DO NOT EAT.  DEPRESSION is such a bother.  Now, keep what you have on, stay away from any mirrors,  and be YOU.