And you don’t open doors in your life you know not of . . .It explodes in your face the same as opening a door containing sweltering flames. This opening of doors allows oxygen to fill this burning rage and KA-BOOM! Look what you did to yourself unknowing the outcome of things to come.
Now a days, just about everything you do has its consequences provided by technology. Meaning cameras and the web. People are cruel and often at times you are cruel to yourself by opening doors in Your life you are not ready or capable of dealing with . . .This renders you to do great harm to yourself . . .Naming SUICIDE.
FOR SOME REASON YOU BELIEVE THIS SUICIDE IS THE ONLY WAY OUT. That things will be over. BUT IT IS NOT! IT RAGES ON AND ON WAY AFTER YOU ARE GONE. IT IS CALLED . . .
In memory of. And your friends and Loved ones are left to take the brunt of your opened door.
You are under age or of age, but what you are about to do is illegal. But it seems like fun and you are with friends and everything seems perfectly cool, awesome, a good time.
You find some dry chairs add a bond fire with nice cold beers. You pull out some weed and have a few tokes, puffs, whatever, you smoke marijuana, when you should be in bed sleeping or at work or something there like that]. Who would find out anyway and who cares. Friends are friends right? NOT ALWAYS. Trust is something that is earned by way of experience. But you are having too much fun to think about things blowing-up in your face.
You drink more you smoke more you dance more, then things get out of hand and cloths come off and pictures are being took and you do not care, you are having fun! You don’t think about this new door you opened, exposing yourself to elements of the unknown. You even decide to have relations with anyone willing or wanting it from you. What the hell you think, it’s all good.
Now comes the time to end the fun, you have to go home and start a fresh day in the morning . . . So far so good. Then that night or the next day you find people are pointing and whispering in your direction. What the hell? Are they talking about me? You find that it seems EVERYBODY is talking about you. Why? What did i do you ask yourself . . .So you go home and turn on your computer and see that you are plastered all over the NET . . .You are naked on FACEBOOK. You, are even shocked at some of the pictures one of your friends placed there for all to see. What will your parents think? What will your friends think? What do you think . . .
THE END OF THE WORLD AS YOU KNOW IT? WRONG! IT IS THE BEGINNING. THE BEGINNING OF WHAT?
The beginning of a higher understanding. Life is not free it takes respect to keep what you want in life. And now you know your actions cause reactions that you were not expecting. Now you will have to deal with insults and stares and chatters and rude remarks, but what the hey . . .The fun was well worth it. Now it is time to LEARN how to block out crap from everyone and move on.
Show me anyone with a perfect life and i will show you bananas growing out my ears. I will plant them my self.
Death is never the answer to anything and if you allow yourself to live a very long life you will come to understand that no matter what silly thing you did it always gets forgotten if you ignore it. BIG DEAL IF IT TAKES days weeks a year or two. Who gives a shit what other people think. Who are they/ better than you? NOT ON YOUR LIFE . . .We all do things we wished we did not. And that is the truth. So think before suicide . . .It is not the answer . . .Close this door.
One time long ago . . .[ It is forgotten by now]. I did a foolish thing, that when certain friends found out they spread it like wild-fire . . . It did not matter where i seem to go, people would point and stare at me like they were waiting for something to happen . . . Nothing did. What did they want. It became so bad for me that i was on my own. Even my sisters stayed clear of me in public.
If i wanted to go into town i had to cross a big field, there the boys and some girls would throw stones at me. They would get tired and leave, after a long time, twenty minutes or so. Whatever . . .They had their fun and i made it to the store. This happened lots. Okay three or four times. They tired of it when they found i would not just stand there, i threw back.
At school no one wanted to partner with me, unless it was for sports. This was the only place the other boys, not the girls, would forget me and play, i was good.
You probably want to know what i did to warrant this kind of behavior from the other students. NOTHING! That is right! I did nothing. I was dumb. I would not talk. I could not learn like them. I could not spell or tell time or add or say the alphabet. Even the teacher stuck gum on my nose or stood me on the desk-top and called me names-hillbilly. She even put a dunce hat on my head and sat me in the corner. But i was too stupid to care or something. I don’t know.
When i became a teenager nothing changed. I was still different, when i got on the school bus all the kids got up and went to the back of the bus, if i happened to go to the back of the bus they went to the front. And this is THE TRUTH. Little minds. People have little minds. These teenagers even cleared out the school yard when i entered it. Lots of space for me to play. It was kind of crappy but what the hey . . .I Love to many things in life that have nothing to do with other people anyway. And as far as i was concerned, these other students could not do the things i could do so in my mind they were the ones that were stupid.
Growing up is harsh at times but the older you get you are to be learning how different everyone is and how everyone has things they like to be kept quite. And when those things are found out even their, friends tease them. The only thing is, some people can IGNORE ignorance because they have an understanding about bullies and how they work.
So think before suicide it is not the answer close this door knowing special things like these.
- Who do you laugh at and talk about.
- Who do you not like at school or work
- If you do something YOU know YOU should not have, then take the crap that goes with it.
- NOTHING AND NO-ONE IS WORTH YOU KILLING YOURSELF
- Bullies get tired of you eventually and look for anyone new.
- DON’T GO ON Facebook
You have to be responsible for your own actions by ignoring all the crap coming from bullies or ignorant people. They stop after a while when the find you don’t care about them. They move on . . .YOU move on too and grow old.