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DON’T WAIT FOR LOVE LET LOVE COME TO YOU

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So you are waiting for Love everywhere and you still can not find it . . .Ever ask yourself why? Is there even Love out there for me? How come i can’t get people to Love me? What is wrong with me! ? Do i BLAH BLAH too much, is my hair the wrong color? Is there something wrong  with my face? Is it because i don’t have ?/??, this question varies. [ I wouldn't have a clue as to what you may compare yourself to ].  But we all have something we all think is the cause for not FINDING LOVE. WE WAIT!oct nov 2011 (60)

Then forget to live life,  wasting time Looking for Love. Do you even Love yourself?  How do you like yourself?   Rather . . .Do you even like yourself?   There is your time wasted again . . .All that time you were going on about Love you could have been spending it on you! Learning to like who you are and what you can do and like to do.Thne while you were being you . . .Look at that, Love found you.

Step one . . .LEARNING TO GET ALONG WITH ALL OTHER PEOPLE

Step two . . .TAKE-UP A HOBBY OF ANYTHING YOU, ALWAYS WANTED TO DO

Step three . . .SEE YOUR PROJECT TO THE END NOT BEING A QUITTER/LOOSER/GIVER-UP-ER

Learn how to say “Hello” while you scratch the small of your back . . .That way they won’t want to shake your hand. And if that don’t work straighten your cloths.  But the whole idea is to strike-up a conversation, need a tree? By the straightening of the cloths . . .Well this actually gets you ALL SHOOK_UP, limber, relaxed, and so on . . .While   you are doing this dusting off and straightening cloths thing, you  are allowing yourself the time to thing of something to say or what to even say.  The whole time the person watching you is probably thinking you have lice or something there like that.   You at least gained the attention, hoping some how this will all turn into LOVE   Love you were,are,  waiting for.    Silly you, go paint a tree or shovel a hole for a tree, Build a bird-house  or row a boat. Don’t wait for Love, Let Love come to you. 6-30-2010 3;03;22 PM

Step one . . .MEET PEOPLE

Step two . . .YOU HAVE TO LEAVE THE HOUSE

Step three . . .REMEMBER WHO YOU ONCE WERE BE THAT AGAIN FIRST

DON’T WAIT FOR LOVE

There is a lot of people out there who are hurting-just like,  thousands,  of people wanting waiting for Love, but they go on, because they believe, they want to live life. These are the people who believe in maybe someday! And they do what they like to do in-between. This in-between is THE DISTRACTIONS in life calling to them to race across the world on a skateboard wearing nothing but a hammock! Or something there like that. Turns out  these people . . .Prefer to enjoy life and Love it nice, but it is not everything in the world that you could be doing besides waiting for Love. These people live a blast, happy everyday, this  basically tells you you are,  wasting your life, losing who you are turning into a nobody all by your own doing, cause you choose to wait for LOVE.

LET LOVE COME TO YOU

Like a brave knight move onto anything else you thought you would like to try!, Write a cook-book, ride a horse, give one of your rooms a face-lift, paint a cow or try. Find who you are and see if you like you, pay-attention to you, LOVE YOU first!   Have fun with things you thought you always wanted to do. LOVE WILL COME TO YOU, as you are being yourself.   As it turns out, there happens to be tons of people like you,  but you have to get out there, leave your house and do the things you like to do. , you will see many people doing what you are doing.  But you have to go to where the crowd is. But not to LOOK FOR LOVE! To have the best fun you can . . .All people see when any-one is having fun, people like to see fun!IMG_3799_01

So if you are a person waiting for LOVE . . .You are waiting for NOTHING/WASTING AWAY/LIFE-LESS/SAD/SHY/SELF-CONCOINIOUS/WISHING THEY WERE A KID AGAIN TO DO THINGS DIFFERENT/ ODD/IGNORANT OF THE VERY WORD LOVE/SELF-LOTH.

  • NO-BODY IN THE WHOLE WIDE  WORLD WANTS  TO love ANYONE LIKE THAT!  
  • PEOPLE LIKE TO lOVE PEOPLE WHO LIKE AND LOVE THEMSELVES
  • PEOPLE LOVE TO BE ACTIVE WITH OTHER PEOPLE
  • FIND YOURSELF AND BE YOU PEOPLE WILL COME TO YOU

YUCK I HATE ANY FORM OF WATING. And i hate it when i forget to unlock the ‘Caps Lock” button, but i move on because i believe in me/ not all the time . . . oct nov 2011 (111)

 

 

 

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LOST AND FOUND/DON’T YOU JUST HATE IT/WOW LOOK WHAT I FOUND

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Holy . . .Look what i found. I didn’t know it was lost. I knew i put it away, had no idea it was lost. I found my little orange memo pad. Wow when i opened it-up, i read Aug.21/07 I think i will share this with you. I feel like i should, that this LOST AND FOUND memo pad will be just as wierd, strange, odd,  funny,  and for all i know , shocking and some what imbarressing. But  in the end it is just words written in a little orange pad that was lost and found.  2007 was a long time-ago. So lets see how wierd it was then.

[Don't you  just hate it when you start cleaning and find a pile of paper and pictures and paintings and bills and any other hording you felt needed to be in that pile. . . .Well that is what i thought i should do this day . . .Finaly sort through this heaping space taking, dust collecting, eye sore pile of stuff. MY STUFF. The stuff i don't get rid of in the first p[lace. I some how start little piles of horded stuff. But i need the space. As i said, i am taking over this no names crap.  To funny. But not so funny that i have to clean and sort and do my best not to toss the wrong piece of hord.  But because i founf this orange memo pad i want to know too, now, which means the starting the tear-down of some of this , stuff, will have to wait.  Which is a bad thing as this copying the memo pad to you guys i could have had plenty of time to clean lots of this , stuff out. But this looks fun, so "hear" it is.  SO ARE YOU READY?   I THINK I AM READY!  {Hope it's all good stuff} word for word here i go.

Aug.21/07

My day started out fine. Did some house work, got laundry done and played on my computer. Then my oldest daughter showed up and asked me if i wanted to go  row-boating in a dingy, the St. Laurwance river. Sure that would be great fun. We pumped them up. Got out out about an hundred feet and my dingy had a leak! Not Fun!!

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Oct.

Windy- Sunday 21/07

Sunny-

Bob and i have something in comon, we both like root-beer.

Anarondick mountains

Same day.

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Oct.

Raining-  Saturday 27/07

At Bob's house, woke-up here. Last night i met his daughter. Cute little thing she is. Quit quick with some comebacks. LoL.

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Nov.10/2007  Saturday

Woke-up at bob's, things were good until i had my first smoke.It wasn't even a whole smoke. As the matter of fact it wasn't even a half of one and it sure made me lighted-headed. I'm going to take an Advil. I have a headache. Tuesday Nov. 6, Bob asked me to be his girlfriend. Of course i said yes. I think he is mighty fine. I like him lots.

Nov. 11,2007 Sunday. 7:20 am.

Last night Bob bought me my first gift. A little green lighter. How sweet,I thpught it was very thoughtful. Now i don't have to use the B-B-Q thiong, such a chore. (make sure the little button was to the right and push down.) Well it always didn't work the first time around! So nicwe  gift. I'm getting used to these weird underwear. God the things people wear for their partners. I have to keep pulling the pantie line out of my crack! Gheese, Glad i don't wear them all the time. 9:oo A.M. Bob gave me cold pizza to eat for Breakfest. Wow!  nice guy. We left to go see,[sorry]

Must honor the nonames code.[thank-you].

We left to go see a little girl around 9:30 AM. It was fun to ee her. She likes Bob. So do I. She playd with him near the whole time there. Even while i was down getting my hair cut. We could hear her laughing with Bob. After a while of playing outside with,  NEXT PAGE     her we went in, got her settled and said  good-bye. From there Bob took us to wall-mart shopping. We walked around look ing for  my daughter, but i guess it  was not her work day. So Bob wanted to go into electrincs and i wanted to go into the picture printing. He did his thing i did mine. When i was finished i desided to look at DVD’sand see Karoke songs.     TURN THE PAGE  Then i came a cross a DVD that i had seen on the T.V. the night before. Wow i could not believe it. I was buying it. But Bob found me, and took it away from me. “You can’t buy that”!  He said.   “Yes i can, and i am”> I said. “No you can’t”.  He said as he took it away from me.  ”But i want to!”  “No you don’t want that!”  “Yes i do Bob!”   “No, you want this!”, and he handed   NEXT PAGE      me a small bag. I stood with my mouth opened for a moment, then asked. “What is this?” “Take it .”  He said with a smile. Well i took it opened it, and couldn’t believe it. He had already bought it for me!. Wow Bob my second gift.                                                                          NOVEMBER                                                                   19th. Monday morning. I’m home from the weekend of Bob”s hopuse. I had a lot of fun as I   TURN THE PAGE    Do there. He danced for me somemore. We played crib again out of 6 games I won one! Wow. Next  night saturday i wn again. I just can’t beat him. Sunday rolled along and we went to see the little girl again bought her a few things, like a toilet-seat, panties-with plactic lining three pairs. And toonie and benno pajamas. Funny   NEXT PAGE   thing she was sitting on the toilet when i got there with the gifts. We went groc. shopping Bob paid for everything, might as well say   100.00 bucks. 90 something     . I made him three pans of Lasonya. He will eat that all week. After supper i did dishes, he went out to the store and purchased shaving equipment, when  he got back . I was into    TURN THE PAGE  football and he was into shaving. He did such a grand job. I am starting to Love this man and leaving his home is getting Sad. I want so much to keep him. Bob said he will visit me Tuesday. Yummy. The Christmas dance is tow weeks away.Shpuld be fun. With Bob of course.                                                                                                         Nov.24,2007  Saturday. Wow I’m not sure what is going on but I am at a distance here NEXT PAGE    at Bob’. I not happy or something, not sure why. maybe it is the  musty mold i smell, constantly breathing it in and out. Knowing this stuff kills you in the long run. Wondering if spores, begone growing   in my lungs. I have been getting dizzy shortly after i started spending  the weekends here. can it be connected in some sort of way? Could it be just coincidadince going through  perimemopause?     TURN THE PAGE   I would only know if i visit my doctor. Some how i must deal with away to get back this great happiness i had. It was quite ownderful. I feel like i am away inside myself lost, Abondon, gone some where and i can’t get out. Maybe it is my face and hair. I can’t stand looking at it eigher one of them. maybe it is MR> Smith reading my    NEXT PAGE  work!? I don’t know. I know i need a way out. I want to come back. For now . . .I will just play along and try not to be mean. It is hard though. I am fighting. But Bob knows  something is wrong.  That is good i think. But i already told him there is a few of me. i can’t tell you if he believes it. But i am gone that I   TURN THE PAGE    can tell you. I don’t know who  has taken  over, but i won’t let Bob get hurt.  Saturday Dec.8th, 2007. Up and awake  A very nice awaking as,well. I am  at Bob’s. And    last night Bobby gave me  one Birthday gift. He gave me a big blue fluffy housecoat. It is so warm and soft. the blue clour in it is very Beautiful.    NEXT PAGE

Just one thing about the gift.Wow! ! the housrcoat is very electricfiying and quite clingy. Holy cow. Shock after shock. Very funny indeed.  But i Love it. So much static!! One might say. don’t have it on in a lighting storm. Sattistacly speaking of course. Now i wonder what the other present is?  Two more day and we will see. Before i  TURN THE PAGE   Forget. Bob also gave me a old flask. Glass at that wrapped in leather. I like it. Not what i expected it to look like at all.  But a flask indeed.      THAT IS IT THERE IS NOTHING ON THE NEXT PAGE

A few pages later.     Mr. Smith.

Full body gear with war paint under his eyes, running down the hall yelling. ‘Okay! Lets do this!”

SEVEN PAGES LATER   Barry has the dose.  Barry has the dose.Nothing but a loser. barry has the dose. he went and told his mother he blamed it on his brother. he fell in Love with others barry has the dose.     TURN THE PAGE   TWENTY-SEVEN PAGES LATER

JULY 7, 2011  Thursday    I am sitting in the hallway at the medical center waiting for a blood test, When i arrived they told me one hour, have a seet. There were no seats. So i went over to the HOME HARDWEAR. Nice i looked at everything in the store. There were a few things i would like  to buy Mark for his Birthday. July 22, i think. Now here i am back and waiting. Sucks ass.  NEXT PAGE    I spent 21 minutes at the store, this was good, but when i got back here there were still no seats. Shame.             TURN THE PAGE                                                                   July 2, 2011            Out with danielle. Look at notepad. Look at talk and type. Do lots of gossiping. Go get headscan. Go eat.                                                                                                                                              July 7, 2011       We ate, but bought nothing. The gossip was all about the Denise. She spoke of  a Claudette.  That was crazy.  Mine was  Denise and Susie. Ohg yes Adele. The ride she picked me up in was filthy. The seat was littered with food.    TURN THE PAGE                                                                        July 22,/11        I have this plan about a game played on T. V. writing small scripts.   TURN THE PAGE  nothing TURN THE PAGE    Nora was mad!! They didn’t like her thinking.They called her stupid. Mistake no one calls her stupid. We act upon our thoughts.  NEXT PAGE    Nora had known about this, and went in through this tunnel with the owner years ago before he died. As she locked herself out. and he just happened by. So he figured he would show her the way  as long as she did promise   she would never tell anyone.  She ne4ver had. Nora was true to her word.  Frigg i should have opened the windows before i started drinking.  TURN THE PAGE   

LABYRINTH

Nora’s house is laied out like a Labyrinth. There is also two, coincelled  doors in the floor. One is in the bathroom the other is in the walk-in closet. These doors lead down under the building  nand was used for boot-legging and sorts.  This permitted the secret sneaking around,   This exited out into the woods tunnled out about  60 feet. The passage- way was covered behind rocks and trees.        NO MORE PAGES

Well i had enough cleaning for today, and goodday to you.

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THEY CALL ME WERID/LUCYANNA

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HOW MANY PEOPLE DO YOUCALL WEIRD

I am sure all people are guilty of naming an other person as weird. What does weird even mean?

  • STRANGE
  • IN DIFFERENT
  • OFF CENTERED
  • NOT RIGHT

What else is weird?

Out of the ordinary out of sorts out of your mind. They call me weird.

They call me weird as to how i think. I ask . . .What is weird about how i think?

  1. I was taught to think
  2. So i always think
  3. At least i think.

Is it what i think they call me weird?

“Again . . .THE QUESTIONS! . . .Why do people come to me, LUCYANNA, and ask the weirdest questions?”

So i asked myself, why would people call someone weird, and have i called anyone weird . . .Yes i have as the matter of fact. But i will tell you i called this person weird because he was starting to act scary. Meaning, what i said to the weird-o is . . .”Holy you’re weird.” This caught their attention all over me. Where i wanted it.  Lets just say WEIRD is a dangerous word to call anyone, depending on how you use the word in a sentence, and your actions to follow.”

Meaning . . .I choose to use the “WEIRD” word as a weapon not a hurt, not a mean thought. To reel in my captured, gaining peace and all fun.

TO CALL ANYONE WEIRD TO HURT FEELINGS

Have i done that? dammit . . .Yes i have. But i felt it in my heart for so long i do not seldom do it. As the matter of fact i have not called anyone weird for some time now. But this is only because i came to understand the

  • DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WEIRD AND WEIRD.
  • LIKE THIS IS WEIRD
  • BUT DAMMIT WHO CARES NOBODY IS HURT

Did any of that answer your QUESTION?

Hey what can i say . . .They call me weird.

“ABOUT” QUESTIONS OF THE DAY & DO QUESTIONS GET ANSWERED

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ABOUT QUESTIONS    [people ask them], a lot. This is a good thing to do in life as it is our answered QUESTIONS getting us through each day. Take this test, for instance. Try to get through one whole day without asking a QUESTION. Any question will do. It only takes one question to LOSE the test.

We as a human race are the one’s who get to speak, talk words, not howl or bark or tweet. {One may even say}, 50/50 in asking questions. Though quite sure the scores go lower for 50,  on the nun questioning minority side. But even then . . .QUESTIONS win. We live in a world of questions.

How do we find or get answers to our questions.THIS DEPENDS.

Some questions are called old-school, these are simple to answer.

  • Well how come i have to go to bed early and they don’t.
  • Answer: You were the only one on the war-path, hit the sack.
  • Why is the sky blue.
  • Answer: Looks pretty grey to me. Now go sit down.

Then you have QUESTIONS LIKE THIS:

  • If the earth stopped turning would it fall out of the sky.
  • Answer: It all depends. Where does the sky end. And how would we know the earth is falling in the first place. Would we be tipping from side to side? What kind of question is that anyways . . .Get out of here, go play. I’m not a scientist, go ask your TEACHER.
  • If all components in gravity died would we float in space.
  • Answer: No. We would be sucked in as well. Oh my GOD . . .If it is GRAVITY pulling us to stay this PLANET EARTH, and somehow gravity vanished, I guess we would float away wouldn’t we. You better ask your teacher.

QUESTION OF THE DAY

  • When you close your eyes can you see your skeleton inside.
  • ANSWER: Ask me later. I have no time right now, i have dishes to do, and i got to get at my writing.
  • Is it waiting for you to tell it to move.
  • Answer: You gotta problem going on in your head there boy. What’s with all the questions. You think were going to die and your skin is all going to fall off and we will just be people of bone. Bone people?  Why don’t you just go play and let me get the dished done and then you can ask all the questions you want. We’ll have a good time. So get out of here.
  • HOW COME YOU DRESS LIKE THAT!
  • answer:Never did know how to dress to catch the wandering eye, just got dressed.

You look funny.

Cause i’m unfashionable. I got no style.

  • Whats unfashionable style.
  • Answer: What you are. How you like to look. This is my style. Unfashionable dress with unfashionable apron. Now go on, go do anything else, so i can get the dishes done. Where is your ipod?

Look at that, most of the answers are QUESTIONS.

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LUCYANNA SHE SAID/SHE SAID

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100_3429 100_2409 000_1358 100_2473 100_2478 Picture 093 Picture 112 100_3125HOW ARE THEY

HOW ARE THEY NOT

HOW COULD YOU ASK

HOW COULD I NOT

To that,  she said. “CAUSE AND EFFECTS”

Then blabber-mouth said blah blah blah.” We are all living in vessels made of flesh and bone. In order to keep this flesh and bone organs feed blood lines through out the flesh. If you choose to drink booze, smoke cigarettes, drown your system in coffee, eat a pound of sugar a day and sit stuffing your face with fatty foods, the vessel will rebel in its own way. Causing the vessel to grow and explode or rot in-side somewhere. Like Cancer”.

Standing there listening to the girl blab and blab on,  waiting for the end of her explanation,  she,  was vexed when the silly talk was over. Then she said.    ”So yeah . . .How are they not. How can anyone person think, dumping wads of unhealthy food down their throat, drinking booze every day or so, smoking a carton of cigarettes a week or less, plus stuffing the blood line with coffee and sugar, while they sit all day, not think  they are destroying their only vessel.  The only one link to life that they have, how can they not think this is their own doing.

The other girl actually said. ” Sometimes people do not think about living like that. They think about a good time not a long time, they don’t think about destroying the vessel nor do they think they indeed are, slowly starting the rotting process. They live as to what makes them happy.

“Awe.” She said.  “That is how they are not. They must be informed”.

“How are you going to inform them”  The blabby girl said.

She waved her off with a hand jester,  telling  the “smarty pants” girl, that she will just have to write a book, on, “How to kill your vessel” Then said. “Then everyone would live healthy forever”.

The girl laughed at her saying in a mocking voice. ” How would they.”

“How would they not”.

 

 

 

A FEW NOTES TO MOTHER – I Think I Got It Mom – It’s You And Your Stuff

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Opinions are often seen as ignorances,  understandings are seen as misunderstandings, misunderstandings of Opinions is the understandings of ignorances.

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January 22,2013

Fear not my Brave Knight, I forever be by thy side.  But you got to stop hording my Lord, I can’t get to you from nither side.

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January 22,2013

 

ON STRIKE

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ON STRIKE-QUIT

  1. Quit everything
  2. Quit something
  3. Quit

So now what . . .What will you do

  1. Start something
  2. Sit around
  3. Sulk

What . . .What will you do.  What did you quit. What happens now depends what you quit and to what extent did you quit.

  1. Totally everything
  2. Life
  3. Certain things

Should you still want to do certain things and did not quit everything then you always have something to fall on.  Should you quit it all then you pretend you have nothing left. When in actual fact you have. Everything!

Indeed you have it all . . .You just do not want to do anymore. So then you can always remain you. ON STRIKE.  Doing something you always wanted to do and have a blast doing it knowing it is you quitting.

  1. On yourself
  2. On others
  3. On you

I wish i had something, anything i could go on strike for. But there is nothing.

Oh wait a minute . . .I can go ON STRIKE and stop doing everyone’s cleaning. They can all lick their own ass. Butt. or something there like that. I want to be me. I’ll show them who is going on strike.

PICTURE THIS

What if i was the best ass licker in town, everyone came to get their ass licked and were proud of it. Even the mayor put up banners around town, proud to have the most favored town containing the greatest ass licker world-wide.

Of course this would bring in people from all over the GLOBE bringing in riches keeping the towns people content then i QUIT! I GO ON STRIKE! Plaster signs across the border and in markets.

ON STRIKE NO MORE ASS LICKING

Now everyone is wondering what the hell i’m going to do, following me around town waiting and watching in anticipation as to what’s going to happen now? No more ass licking . . .What the crap ass is that.

Well i’ve been ass licking for so long i don’t know what to do. Poo on you. Sooner or later i went missing and found myself listening to way deep in the JUNGLE where you can hear the cry of the Pisona bird, [pisona pisona pisona]. Now i just do what i want which is not having to ass lick.

Glad i went on strike

WITH-IN-TENT LESSON

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With-in-tent: Meaning inside. Surrounded covered. This is knowing. With intent knowing the whole time you had it covered. Knowing the outcome the whole time. Intent.

Picture this

He/she knew if going to the party meant starting an argument with the parents or husband/wife or sister/brother, or friends/family. But this was not a concern when people fought or not as long as he/she got what they wanted.

He/she was going to the party at any cost intended!  No matter what he/she scoped out their plan and set to work. With in tent.

INTENTIONS AND WITHINTENT ARE

  • TWO DIFFERENT THINGS
  • TWO DIFFERENT ACTIONS
  • TWO DIFFERENT  THINKINGS.

THE END

 

HEADS

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When i was young i was told one day we will be just heads . . .Little did the person know by telling me this that i would live the rest of my life wondering when it was going to start and glad it did not start with me.

For the first time in my life i have seen a two-headed twenty-two year old girl, on a program, where her life as been being followed from the age of seven. She is apparently going to be a school teacher to very young children . . .I have nothing against two-headed people, but i sure am happy i am not one of those children in her class room. [That would really screw me up], by me being me.

I do not know how i would react,  if in fact,  i came in contact with a being like this. And i do not mean anything bad by it,  rather than the fact,  that i am,  nuts to begin with.  I think my mind would retaliate and i would become afraid and think they have landed and does anyone else now they are here. {This is bad thinking of me i know}, plus ignorant but unless we know all life around us what do we really know . . .SHAME ON ME!

But i am glad to have seen this on the television as i know not all things are real on the television. And maybe that is where the old saying, [two heads],  are better that one came from, as i am more than positive this girl is not the first. We live in a large world and do not know of it all to this day . . .

Just heads,  floating around all day,  doing nothing but thinking and knocking into each other.